It's that age-old question isn't it? Do I find my comfort zone and stick to it or do I push boundaries?
Never before in my life did I choose to stick to my comfort zone so why did I do so now?! There's no doubt (in my mind at least) that the editorial position is something that I would be good at but I didn't apply for it. I applied for the Features/Lifestyle Editor position. Now, it's not that the position is beneath me - far from it, it will be interesting and challenging - it's just that I will always wonder if I could have done a little bit more, gone that little bit further.
I am still not entirely sure why I decided not to go for the position. I suppose my mind harks back to the horrible pressure put on Mike in second year as editor of the magazine project. Then I remember the horrible pressure Branglim was under with the Voice two years ago. Both of those are positions I would not like to be in.
Then I start asking myself some questions - what do I pride myself on? What is my best quality? What is my best selling point? I am very cool and collected under pressure, I never freak out and I am an outlet for anyone at anytime, no questions asked.
Did I just describe what an editor should be to me?
Okay an editor also has to be competent at most if not all aspects of production...okay I am fairly confident that I am that too.
And finally, the penny drops.
I should have gone for it.
Is this just a case of Murphy's Law? Am I just feeling this now because the chance to be editor has passed or would I have come to regret my decision in a few short weeks? I'm on this earth 30 years and I have no regrets so far, why would they start now?
To borrow a phrase from one of the world's greatest ever philosophers, "D'oh!"
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